Posted 04-01-10 at 05:15 PM by NurseL
Why does it seem that some dreams are out of reach that you think they are there and then they are gone. Why is it those closest to you cut to the core even after nine years you are still an embarassment, horrible decision maker or everything you say is not heard as the daze into the TV is so intense that you would only dream of that attention. Why is it I can go to work and help save someones life or care for them and then you come home. the only joys in my life at 28 years old are my son and my work. He has made the last 6 years tolerable, and yet with the new year i am trying to do the one thing i have needed to do focus on me and my son. I have neglected myself, I have lost 65 pds and it is still not good enough, I question all the things in my life except my son. He is my rock, but I wish that for myself I had someone who wasnt 6 yrs old to tell me I look pretty or that I am the best...Does this sound crazy or over emotional, b/c I am not usually an emotional person nor do I ramble and here I am talking to people I dont know b/c I have no other outlet.
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