didn't know where this goes...

I will be *taking a break* from woc.

I used to think I needed the internet. I didn't have friends otherwise, and it quickly became the closest thing to a social life I thought I *needed*. I used to think, until very recently, that I NEEDED to share my frustrations and thoughts with people to cope with them. That I couldn't live with just talking to my mum (who I don't have the best mother/daughter relationship with) as well as with other family members I'm not that much more closer to. Before this, I was jumping from chatroom or mmorpg to other chatrooms or other mmorpgs. Of course, my moods, life issues and defensiveness gets too much, and I leave. I don't think I've been any different (or mature) here, as much as I wish I was.

There's too many issues I have. Too many things that make me react. Tonight it was a debate with someone in the room about the experience I've had of something in my life affecting my tolerance of it compared to his experience of it in his life giving him a different and conflicting opinion about it. I tried to tell him that 1- it's ok for him to have a different opinion from me, 2- that I will disagree because of my experiences, and 3- a comment I made to purposefully outrage him was an exaggeration because he had said comments that outraged me.

This didn't get conveyed, and the others in the room who had previously been chatting among themselves told me and him to drop the topic. Fact was, I was trying to say sorry to a guy who wanted to go on about his tolerance of the particular thing, while people told me to not mention it. I'm sorry that I disturbed everyone else. I'm sorry I even bothered to try have an exciting conversation. Maybe I should have sat on forums all night posting topics to death. Oh wait, I had been.

(Predictably) I've decided that this no longer holds any satisfaction for me. There's too many things inside me that I need out, and not only are the controversal topics not tolerated in the room, but no one should have to act as therapist for me. You all want fun, I don't know what I wanted from here. I thought I needed interaction. I've realised that I've been seeking something more selfish. Perhaps I've simply been trying to find someone who understands everything wrong with me, and still respects and likes me. God knows.

I don't want to blame anyone, or any particular situation for this. I'm a weird person with too much stuff in my head, and I would have left eventually. The topics aren't deep enough for me, I've pondered a few things I can't talk to many people about, and I don't want the only people who talk to me to be the passionate trolls who are also as bored or the pming pervs who ask asl all night. I don't want to have to say stupid ridiculous stuff to make people lol at me and think I'm interesting, or to argue with someone to have someone reply something remotely intellegent me. Perhaps here's where my lack of social skills become apparent. Either way, the rooms are better off without me.

If anyone else comes in as FlirtyEyes, it will no longer be me. I shall not be returning.

P.s. That doesn't mean suicide, as depressing as it all sounds.

P.p.s. I wasn't any of the cryptic gossips.

P.p.p.s. There's a name and shame thread about me. Post on it if I'm so damn annoying, I won't be here to bloody read the thing.

[tommysize1]

lol

drama queen! go for a jog or something. clear your head.

A little harsh Tommy, but fair comment. The girl's obviously has problems and needs professional help. There's no shame in seeking help.

[tommysize1]

and you thought i was being harsh?! PMSL ""she needs professional help" LOL

[QUOTE=tommysize1;63210]and you thought i was being harsh?! PMSL ""she needs professional help" LOL[/QUOTE]

tommy thats harsh ffs
she's actually a good laugh to talk with and who are you to judge?

[sultry]

dont take this the wrong way, suppose there is no other way to say it but we all have problems and like to find things that take our mind of them, in ur case it seems to be the internet has been ur form of escaping but that isnt the answer for the long haul..i know its easier said than done but look at ur problems and work out ways u can face them head on, life is too short huni. hope u get sorted :-)

[tommysize1]

omg!

i put a winky face on my post and everything!

mystikat these things " can be used for quotes and stuff. at least thats what i thought

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blurghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

hi..
watup

[QUOTE=RoutePlanner;63206]A little harsh Tommy, but fair comment. The girl's obviously has problems and needs professional help. There's no shame in seeking help.[/QUOTE]
if she has problem i think there we be someone to help her

Flirty doesn't need -professional help as such, she is a good laugh & fact is it's probably coming on here thats given her more hangups, talking with us looney's :P